It's a simple attempt to share with others the emotions, thoughts I have on my journey in dealing with my daughters death February 27,2010. It's the letters that I began to write in my journal telling her my thoughts, fears, anger you name it. Some of it will not be shared here as it is still too personal and painful. I hope that anyone also going through this grief might be helped in some way by the expressions I put forth. One of Jessica's favorite saying was "Magic happens when you least expect it." I'm sure I'll find some along the way on this journey although it might take me some time to recognize it. This is a way for me to give back to those that have helped me along the way in dealing with my grief. This is dedicated to my dear daughter Jessica and my Grandchildren, Kyodo, Kyliana and Kyliah. I love you all dearly.
Hey Jane, I never got to meet Jessica in person, but I did find her on MySpace last year. Here are some of our message exchanges:
ReplyDelete3/29/2009 10:26 PM
From: Jessica
To: Dan (danielh41@myspace.com)
Hi my name is Jessica as you can see and i recieved a friend request from you and was wondering one thing..... Who are you?
Dan
Dan Hawkins
3/30/2009 9:01 PM
From: Jessica
To: Dan (danielh41@myspace.com)
okay, yes I am your cousin's daughter so that makes us cousins too, right? My name is Jessica as you can see. I have three kids one son and two daughters. I am getting old as we speak(tomorrow is my 26th birthday).
You want to know something ironic? When I saw you on who wants to be a millionaire I told my ex that if you were to win then we would be related from that day on. Come to find out you really are my cousin! haha that's too funny.
I need to get off the computer my youngest is eating dog food again.
Mama said as long as the baby doesn't start barking that it's all good but I don't think it is too great an idea to let her eat dog food for supper, what do you think?
From: Dan
To: Jessica
Date: Mar 31, 2009 5:00 AM
Subject: RE: hi
It's hard to believe that the Who Wants to Be a Millionaire appearance was 8 years ago already. I have two boys, ages 9 and 6. I've got a few pictures of them here on my MySpace profile. And I also have a picture of your great-grandparents' headstone if you're interested.
Your mom and I are first cousins, so I think that would make us first cousins once removed. At least, that's the way the Family TreeMaker program figures it. And no, I don't think it's a good idea to let the kid eat dog food.
I hope you have a very happy birthday!
Dan
3/31/2009 2:01 PM
From: Jessica
To: Dan (danielh41@myspace.com)
WOW! Thanks. Your boys are very cute. I was wondering if maybe you had pictures of my great grand parents or even any you might have my grandparents. As for pictures of the kids they are my myspace also. i think there is about 50 pictures from when mama came down to visit. well gotta run the alsomst 2 year old is likely to start tearing up the house if i don't go catch up with her now. but first, what is the Family Tree maker you mentioned?
I did send her a message about the Family TreeMaker software, but MySpace didn't keep that message in my Sent items...
I was very shocked and saddened to hear of her passing...